hello aspirant,

No not worry .when everything goes against us thats when you need to hold on.for good and improving english do the following:

1.use "duolingo" app for improving english

2.listen to english songs with lyrics listen and see lyrics

3.watch english movies with subtitles

4.talk in english.no matter how bad your english is talk in english.

for knowledge use internet .these days internet provides you every thing .from books for sbi to knowledge books.for improving knowledge start talking to people and read as many books as possible.it will also give you confidence

also reading daily 5 pages from any book any topic helps you to get back slowly to studies.dont rush in.you can do .make a plan and proceed.

hope this helps,

thankyou.