Ayush, it has hardly been 24 hours that we came up with a strategy for you start from the scratch. All that you need to do is concentrate for 1 hour and study. You have to give it a try. Without even giving it a try you cannot give up. That questions the very seriousness of you wanting to succeed. Whether it is CA or SBI, the reading habit has to start from somewhere and we did suggest you to try the Marshmellow way where in you study one hour a week without distractions. If you give up without even starting and still want to have your own apprehensions and fears, we are afraid nothing can help you. No amount of suggestions or advice from anyone can benefit you unless you want to give it a try. You should check what is that you want to do with your life. Try and succeed or give it up even before trying and keep complaining and regretting for the rest of your life. It is your life and your choice. What you want to make out of it is totally upto you. What anyone can do is to help you show the way. Putting efforts is on you.