Hello,

Just try to look at the brighter aspects of your life in terms of your family, parents, you are in a good condition especially in this time, and more importantly you do have access to learning which is a blessing, and unfortunately many people are deprived of it, if you want to have a strong grip on English then make your foundation strong by going through the fundamentals in grammar, watch English news channels, movies, documentaries or anything as per interest, read daily newspaper like The HIndu, if  you continue even for a month you will be able to see the changes within you, try to talk in English with your family and friends, this practice will improve your English, and feel grateful for whatever that you have today with you, see it's very important that you motivate yourself as there is no one else who's gonna do that on your behalf, you may ask for advice but eventually it's up to you to implement it.