Ayush, we are what we think we are. No one can manipulate us into thinking of something we are not. I want to break down some facts for you. You have been having fears of losing and not being able to make it or not having enough time to prepare for SBI PO for more than a month now. And you have been receiving help from us. regarding how to cope up for the lost time. Did you know that all it takes is 30-45 days to master English? Any Coaching center will teach you English Grammar and Vocabulary in less than a month. There is online Coaching, there are Youtube channels, there are apps that are free to download and learn. There is ample information available for you at the click of a button. And here we are a month or 2 later, with the same apprehensions, same fears and same doubts. With all due respect, we get your pain and fears. But the one who overcomes it and "works" towards fixing the issues is the one who succeeds. The rest are forgotten by History. You want to crack SBI PO exams. That is a goal, So your fear of not having a goal doesn't even exist. At the age of 20, 90% of the Students are still studying their final year of Graduation or still in their Graduation if it is a Professional degree. So your fears of not having a career are untrue because 90% of the Student population is with you. Regarding friends, not everyone is social and so that is no sin either. And that is not a reason why you should be feeling tired or hopeless either. Feelings of fear, despair and helplessness are common but working towards a positive outcome is the need of the hour. If that is not worked on, we might just be stuck in the same phase. Years and months might pass but we will remain where we are. At the age of 20, if you do not act on working towards your shortcomings or goals or fear, it might be really late when you are 30. If you want to improve your English, we did mention the books and how you can practise. As much as we discuss this Ayush, the change and course of action need to come from you.